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McDave
 May 10, 07 - 12:28 AM |
Are we winning?
I hope i dont regret this. Read with care. First off, i need to do this cause christ knows what will come out here... I work for police in a civilian capacity. Anything i say here wont contravene any document i have signed nor will it reflect views of police. What i will say though, is that it seems to me it makes fucking great sense to anyone who is a human being. I wont name and shame. Regardless of how much it is deserved im sure anybody who digs will see quickly who i mean but this only kick started this rant. Firstly, it is incredible to me that anyone, ANYONE could come onto a site like this, designed for a purpose like this, just to have a fucking pop, a fucking peep into how much suffering anybody could have caused any other one person and to actually tap into any kind of insecurities and make someone think they are helping them go through something. I would like to say i was raped once, and mentallyl abused for fucking years afterward. The mental torture was worse so ill be honest - i have no fucking time for anybody who takes pleasure from others pain. I have a beautiful girlfriend, a job which makes me feel like i am doing something, i am sorting my meaninglessly pathetic life out and for what? I see things every day, how because things could not be proved or followed up on, things are dropped. This is not to say it is because of laziness, it is simple truth. Higher powers have tied hands to a detriment of society. Things which could be avoided are not because checks are not carried out. So called organised religions are hiding things from public, and i wil say survivors, about abusers who roam their territory like some kind of wolf with a fucking driving licence. The only times things are uncovered or changed is when it is too late! People need to suffer to enact change. People need to die before any notice is taken. What good is that? Is this why we vote governments in? To sort shit out when it is too late? No! Itrs to fucking protect. Do they do this? Well they have better ideas. Lets just let these guys get off from prison cos they arent as bad as these guys? Who suffers? Think abou tit. Who suffers? That politician sitting in his plush house? Fuck no. The guy who went home with the wrong people. The guy who walked down the wrong alleyway. The woman who got too drunk. The woman who got in the wrong taxi. And i hope you didnt drink that night kids. Cos that makes it so much worse. Then everything is taken with a pinch of salt. That isnt through working where i do. Ive done it myself. Is it wide known that alcohol is a worse problem in our society than drugs? All these idiots trying to escape their mundane fucking lives are daring to go out on the piss. Im drunk right now. It could be construed im trying to start a goddamn riot. Let me state im not. All i want is to know im not the only one thinking this. Please tell me im not. Please tell me im not the only one who made a stupid mistake that has repercussions on the res tof my life. That will effect how i make love to the woman i will marry. Which will effect my kids and the way i raise them. Im fucking terrified of having children! Why? Nobody can sit with their kids on their knees these days it is so PC. But ironically, priests get free passes, scout leaders, any person of "authority". But fuck those parents...they're just dodgy arent they!? Is it worth fighting? Are their numbers too great? Are we the silent majority? Please tell me we're not. Im begging you. Don't lie. Just be honest. Are we? Is there any point in getting th emessage out? Steve, im telling you man, how you done it for as long, people have come and gone, i have for fuck sake, im just a stupid fuck who can only go onm this site and face up to an event which has shaped him when he has had a couple of drinks. How is it done? How is faith kept? You. The survivor reading this now. How do you do it when looking around it sometimes seems so pointless and so uphill. This isnt just fo rme. Im not saying im not being selfish here cos alot of it is. But fuck...never mind are we winning, are we even on the battleground? |
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Steve
May 10th, 2007 - 3:42 PM |
Yes, we are winning!
Hi Dave Sorry that twat's message upset you mate, but he was picking on me, not anyone else and only posted his message because he wanted to show me he could, but what he failed to realise that I could track his IP, etc and ban him from accessing this forum and from even emailing me diretly Plus, he's nothing, not even worth wasting space on Are we winning? When I set up the group it was with the intention of my need to meet others in the same situation as me, lost and alone, afraid, etc Sine that first meeting back in 1991, I have met and talked wih over 4,000 guys, including you mate, and since that time, we have taken a huge step forward to being loud and proud Consider this...Back in 1993, I went on my first march and rally in London, and was the only male survivor to stand up and speak out, which shocked me, as I thought others would be there..Of course they were there, but hidden away, acting as stewards, etc, and not 'really there' as a male survivor Fast foward to last year and the there was loads of male survivors who stood up at the mike, spoke out and told the world their story AND took part in the march for themselves, not as a steward but loud and proud to be there Of course I would say we're winning, but thats what I do best, (be positive) so I'll leave it to others to post their views on how they have coped since coming forward and whether it helps to do so Look after yourself fella..and ease up on the booze mate, it would help to focus you more on the positives of life and fuck the past off to where it belongs Take care of yourself Dave, you're worth so much more mate Steve |
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